Tuesday, July 07, 2009 what's the meaning of all this???i really,really feel more then just fucked up now...well yeah i know,i was the one who wanted to end the friendship...but then...argh!!!!is this even the right decision at all??? she smsed me last night...close to midnight...asking me for my bank account cos she wanted to return me back whatever she owed me...what actually happen was that i told her that she could take her time to repay me cos we were good friends and all and that i'm not the type of guy that would kill because of money...so yesterday she smsed me saying that cos i no longer want to be friends with her, she asked me to send her my bank account for her to transfer me cos its no longer a "buddies' loan"...haiya....just what the fuck AM i doing???? i really feel fucked up,messed up and so fucking stupid that i wish i really have a gun beside me now...put an end to all this misery... ~guess its time...time to rid this world of one fucked up misery everyone calls RAY... and may the world be such a better place without it~
