Sunday, July 05, 2009 back to the railroads againmy bro just broke up with his girlfriend yesterday...hearing the stories i kinda feel him...i mean,its about another guy as well right?so yeah...i only kinda feel him and not totally cos my situation is that the girl is not mine...but i mean it already hurts enough... and i don't know how long i can probably carry on knowing that she's probably with a guy out there somewhere... i made a decision yesterday...i sent her an sms saying that we should just stop being friends...that i am silently hoping but i know its not gonna happen...and then i said nice knowing you and thanks...the most funny think is that she replied me the following morning,asking me what's wrong with me and whether i'm crazy or something...i just didn't reply... i dunno whether its the right or wrong thing to do...but if possible i just don't wanna see her or hear from her anymore...i know she won't regret or anything cos i'm probably just another friend to her...i just hope i'll survive this incident without losing any parts of myself... ~somebody please guide or tell me whether what i'm doing is right or wrong...i've never asked for all the things in life or something that is impossible...i just asked to be given someone... to be able have a lucky break just one time in my life...just let me have that thing if only for awhile...after that i won't mind if i have to pass on and i will not have any regrets...~
