Friday, August 01, 2008 the worst is yet to comei'll be honest in this post...I'm freaking bored at every single thing i'm doing now... don't ask me why all right...all i do know is that my life is in a freaking mess...and i don't really know how to sort it out...hmmm...
oh wells...its not the worst i'm feeling...at least now i know that its just that i've lost my way...again...hmmm...i just feel like everything is wrong again...i mean, what have i actually done to deserve all this???its not like i made use of people,heck, its usually the other way around...honestly,why am i losing a grip of everything??? i feel i'm losing myself...
i guess the only reason i am living for now is for my band...i look forward to jam with them every week...they're the only thing that keeps me going...at least my life is not that completely useless...thanks to the OFA...
oh wells...i think what i would need now would seriously be a vision quest... probably no one knows what it is,but actually it just means following your vision and trying to get it...it may take months,even years...the things that you learn before the vision quest ends will be the purpose of the whole thing itself... yeah... i would seriously need to undergo a vision quest now...
damn...in the meantime...i'll bear with everything the world throws at me...its not my choice,but,i simply will have to survive...
