Sunday, June 15, 2008 haiz......damn...i'm losing my patience,passion n god noes wad else...its like how i used 2 start off,i dun find any joy in doing wadever i do anymore...n i feel veri moody nowadays...i kinda lost my reason 2 smile,tok,laugh...i feel i'm losing myself...
haiz...wadever i believed was worthed fighting 4,worthed protecting,worthed supporting no longer appeals 2 me...it seems 2 me tt i nd a new reason or oderwise 4 sumone 2 remind me in wad i believe in...i nd a sign...a spark...wadever...as long as it can keep dis fire in me burning...jus one ting...
~jus show me a sign...remind me again wad it was tt i was willing 2 sacrifice 4... tell me again where i belong in dis dreamworld called reality...~
[ burning out ] at 6/15/2008 04:42:00 AM
Thursday, June 12, 2008 wad went wrong....i'm criousli in mass confusion now...i can't eat,i can't sleep...i'm always tinking... haf i done aniting wrong???it seems like de doom i've chosen a few daes back seems like de wrong one 4 me...haiz...haf i really chosen wrongly???haiz...will sumbody jus show me a sign???hmmm...i realli realli nd a guide...show me de path i shud tread...i am lost...a few daes ago it seemed like it was de best choice...now i jus ain't tt certain...it jus seem so wrong...it jus seems tt 2 disappear frm de face of de world was de disappearance of my soul frm myself...i feel worst den wen i started off...if onli sumone wud wake me up or sumting...
~master wind of all eternities...help me choose...u will b de one hu dcides my fate... i haf trust u enuff 2 blif in de news u bring me...now again i will nd ur help... dcide 4 me on wad path i shall take...4 my soul is as lost as a sunked ship...let me ride on ur breeze 2 de path tt is rightfully mine...i will put my faith in u 4 u shall b my guide...~
[ burning out ] at 6/12/2008 01:28:00 AM
Wednesday, June 11, 2008 Stop This TrainAnother nice song tt u shud listen 2...de song is stop this train by john mayer...
No, I'm not colorblind I know the world is black and white I try to keep an open mind But I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again I can't take the speed it's moving in I know I can't But honestly, won't someone stop this train?
Don't know how else to say it I don't want to see my parents go One generation's length away From finding life out on my own
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again I can't take the speed it's moving in I know I can't But honestly, won't someone stop this train?
So scared of getting older I'm only good at being young So I play the numbers game To find a way to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man Said "Help me understand" He said "Turn sixty-eight" "You'll re-negotiate"
"Don't stop this train Don't for a minute change the place you're in And don't think I couldn't ever understand I tried my hand John, honestly we'll never stop this train"
Once in a while, when it's good It'll feel like it should And they're all still around And you're still safe and sound And you don't miss a thing Til you cry when you're driving away in the dark Singing
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again I can't take the speed it's moving in I know I can't Cause now I see I'll never stop this train.
[ burning out ] at 6/11/2008 04:52:00 PM
Details In The FabricThis is a song by jason mraz called details in the fabric...its a very nice song... hope u listen 2 it...
Calm down Deep breaths And get yourself dressed instead Of running around And pulling all your threads saying Breaking yourself up
If it's a broken part, replace it If it's a broken arm then brace it If it's a broken heart then face it
And hold your own Know your name And go your own way Hold your own Know your own name And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Hang on Help is on the way Stay strong I'm doing everything
Hold your own Know your name And go your own way Hold your own Know your name And go your own way
And everything, everything will be fine Everything
Are the details in the fabric Are the things that make you panic Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are the things that make you blow Hell, no reason, go on and scream If you're shocked it's just the fault Of faulty manufacturing.
Yeah everything will be fine Everything in no time at all Everything
Hold your own And know your name And go your own way
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name) Are the things that make you panic Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name) Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way) Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name) Hell no reason go on and scream If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way) Of faulty manufacturing
Everything will be fine Everything in no time at all Hearts will hold
[ burning out ] at 6/11/2008 04:48:00 PM
Sunday, June 08, 2008 my disappearingi dun realli noe how 2 start,but oh wells,i'll try anws...
n yeah,like de title saes,i am gonna disappear...4 i find no longer any point in staying...2 dose hu will b affected(i dun tink any1 will)i'm sorry but i just have 2 leave...its sumting tt i've been deliberating abt but n i've finally dcided...
i jus hope tt 4 dose of u tt i might haf made a diff in ur lives,u ppl will rmbr all de gd tings i haf tot u all...nt much but yeah,do rmbr dem...n pls,pls rmbr one ting...do nt ever regret any choices tt u haf dcided upon cos regrets will onli make u feel worst... yeah...so dun...
n one more ting...i'm sorry if u tink tt i'm being selfish,but i haf my own reasons 4 doing so...sound or nt sound,dey r my reasons...
wells...i'll b going off now...dis might b de last tym i'm actuali gonna post in here...so i'll jus sae a final gdbye...do nt msg me aft reading dis 4 i will nt reply u...i jus wun...4 i haf dcided my doom n i will live by it...
