Saturday, May 24, 2008 jus wad tym is it???hey ppl...fuck...its 430 am in de morning n i'm still awake...not tt i dun wan 2, jus tt i can't...anws,i jus realised one ting...my blog doesn't really catch a lot of eyes... wells,if u ask me,tts both a gd ting n a bad ting...its gd cos i can complain abt ppl w/o dem noeing it n bad cos i dun get much attention...oh wells... haha...
anws...i really can't slp now...n i really dun haf aniting 2 do actuali...i'm like criousli bored 2 death rite now la...hmmm...nuting much i CAN do...hmmm...
and...de most fucked up ting is:'an idle mind is de devil's workshop...i'm been tinking a lot dis past few daes...yeah,my mind has been idle...i've criousli been tinking abt a lot a lot of tings...de tings tt i dun wanna rmbr,de tings tt i dun wanna 4get,de tings tt i had gone thru,de tings i wished i had done in my life...n it all actuali boils down 2 one fact...n de fact is,wadever hapens in life,we r sure 2 turn back n sae tings like:'i'm glad i did tt' or 'i wished i did tt' ..but all i wan 2 put across 2 my readers,(YES U!!!!!!!!!)is that dun ever regret wadever u haf done...noe dis,a worst ting den making a mistake is regretting it...dun ever regret but instead learn frm it...i'm nt saying tt its easy...i'm jus saying tt tt is de way 2 b...jus like de saying dun cry over spilled milk...de reason u dun cry is bcos de milk is oreadi spilled...in de same scenario,u can't possibly regret cos de ting already hapened 2 u...yeah...trust me on dis...de world works tt way...
n i've actuali been tinking abt my life...as in where its going n all...2 tell u de truth,i criousli do nt noe...i'm kinda lost rite now...lost 2 de point tt i dun noe where i am,where i came from or where i'm going...like criousli...i criousli do nt noe wad i'm looking 4...its as if tings r jus so...wrong...its as if i did a mistake tt i dun even noe i did sumwhere in my life earlier...its as if i nd sumting but i dunno wad...its as if i'm waiting 4 sum kind of answer,sum kind of sign...oh yeah,n 2 make matters worst,i kinda feel more alone den ever now...my phone tt cud nvr b silent 4 more den 30 min each dae is now eternally silent...its as if everione out dere sudd 4got me or sumting...hmmm...i dun really blame dem but,y all at once???
its reali funny how at one point ur life actuali looks great but actuali its jus a passing cloud tt is masking a really fearsome mountain tt wud catch pilots off guard..its jus so fucked up sumtyms...
~Hell calls me...And the wind that blows beckons me to take a step nearer...Its as if nature and the afterlife are working hand in hand to cast me to an endless sufferring of no measure...But be it powers of nature or the beasts of darkness,i will fight on and bide my time before i enter the eternal abyss~
