Monday, November 19, 2007 small tings shuden b taken lightly,neither shud big tings...i've been tinking abt it alot...alot alot...i reali am starting 2 miss my starbucks family a whole lot...i feel veri sad n down n alone all at once...first my 2 sisters, lynda n charmaine haf gone...now 1 of my bros,han n his gf,kai ting,are oso leaving...den de oders hu i dun consider my siblings but part of de family r oso leaving...i actuali knew all dis were gonna hapen...i jus didn't expect it 2 hapen so fast...so fast till i didn't noe wad hit me wen it did...haiz...
i oreadi had a tok wif my bro,kiat,hu's staying in de store abt it...yeah,we both agreed tt tings r nvr gonna b de same again...as much as me n him r making jokes abt han leaving n so on n so forth,but stil...i noe tt deep inside his heart bleeds as much as mine...its nt as though he didn't expect all dis 2 hapen...but he,like me, had oreadi expected their departure,onli tt he oso didn't noe it wud b hapening so fast...
damn it...as much as i noe i wun enjoy de work dere anymore,i noe i wud haf 2 stay on...cos i haf 2 earn 4 my own living in a relatively flexible working hours environment...n oso i've oreadi committed myself 2 sb-ps...if i oso leave de store any tym soon,dere's no telling wad wud hapen 2 de store,wad wud hapen 2 kiat, wad wud hapen 2 lawrence...dere's no telling wad wud hapen...
haiz...my family...if any of u guys r reading dis,wich i veri much doubt,i jus wanna tell u tt i miss each n everione of u all so veri much...i wished we cud all stick 2gether but i noe u all wud leave sumdae...jus as i will leave in 2 yrs tym or sooner if i get a better job offer...but i will stay 4 as long as i can...4 tt place was where i found my family n it holds alot of memories 4 me...
oh well...i jus hope tt we all can stil mit up regularly guys...4 u guys haf made de deepest impressions in my heart...
[ burning out ] at 11/19/2007 11:44:00 AM
Friday, November 16, 2007 everibody's changing n nuting feels de sameA lot of tings r gonna change veri soon...n not all r dose tt i approved of...its nt like i wish 4 everiting 2 hapen but dey r happening...hmmm...
my gd partners in starbucks r leaving one by one...in de end dere'sonli gonna b onli 3 reliable partners left...onli a manager,lawrence,a full timer,kiat,n a part timer,me...but in any case,i noett i wun b able 2 stay long myself...n 2 c de place tt i kolhme going down jus like tt...on my part,tt is veri irresponsible...but den again, hu i am 2 sae?de pay itself is ntttgd so of cos pplwudhaf 2 find a better job or sumting...haiz...its gonna b a veri diff environment altogether frm now on...
on a diff note...or more or less de same...hmmm...dere's one ting tt owaes boders me...n stil is though...hmmm...i've found out tt i'm a person hu owaes wish 4 tings tt i can nvr haf...well...i guess its nt sumting tt jus found recently la...but...its playing in my head veri often dis few daes...haiz...
n de funi ting is...wadever i wished 4 is nt dose veri expensive stuffs or any materialistic stuffs...i jus wish 2 get a companion...but i guess its sumting nt within my means...hmmm...
oh well...sumbody hu has so much bravery n recklessness is such a coward wen it cums 2 wooing girls...haiz...u can ask me 2 help u out in fight,u can ask me 2 do death defying stuffs,but i freeze wen it cums 2 girls...haiz...
damn it...everitings changing while i stil stay de same...is tt reali a sign tt saes i shud b dis lonely 4ever?it feels so so fucked up...
[ burning out ] at 11/16/2007 08:37:00 PM
Monday, November 12, 2007 Iris-Goo Goo DollsAnd I'd give up forever to touch you 'cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't wanna go home right now
And all I can taste in this moment And all I can breath is your life And sooner or later it's over I just don't wanna miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me 'cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that aint coming Or the moment of truth in your lies When everything feels like the movies Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me 'cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me 'cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me 'cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am
[ burning out ] at 11/12/2007 12:29:00 PM
hello again...its me...hey...quite long since i updated so yeah...i tot i'll slowly return back 2 blogging... hmmm... first tings first...nt much tings has been happening since de last tym i blogged in here so i guess dun haf aniting much 2 update abt... anws,rite now i'm playing a game koled need 4 speed most wanted...guess its nt so bad cos i can play de game 4 hrs on end...hahax...its quite sumting i shud sae... n yest i managed 2 beat de cops at their best lvl...i guess i am de best racer arnd...hahax...but den again...i am de speed demon...hahax... hmmm...n lately...i've oreadi found my anthem...i guess i can safely sae tt i've found de sound of my life...its de song koled iris by a band name goo goo dolls... so yeah...my song frm now on... hmmm..nt reali having aniting else 2 sae now...n i guess i've oreadi written a fair sum???well,i guess i'll stop here for now...till my next entry den...RazorStingX signing off... PS:if u do noe me,do try 2 remind me to blog yeah??cud use de reminder once in a while...hahax...
