Tuesday, August 28, 2007 move on ray,lonely wolf of de howling windi guess i noe wad my fault is now...i am 2 stuck in de life of my past...tts it..no more...i can't do it any more...oderwise i will nvr make it thru alive...gt 2 hooked up in de past till i can't slp,i can't eat,i can't rest...enuff is enuff...i will haf 2 move on...4 gd...hmmm... haiz...mayb i shud start doing sum drastic changes 2 my life again...to end all my misery...dey sae he hu makes a beast out of himself,gets rid of all de pain of being a man...mayb tt shud b me...de beast frm hell...de lonely wolf i was once but i condemned 2 stay away frm... hmmm...i had a tot jus now as i was boarding de train 4 work...wud it b better if my past didn't occur?wud it b wise 2 travel back in tym 2 de tym wen i was in sec 2 if i cud n switch places wif de young n innocent me n make sure all my past didn't hapen anyway...made sure i studied hard 4 my secondary sch...made sure i didn't accept her1elp wen she offered 2 help me...made sure i retaliated de dae her1godbro brought her12 c me n scold me 4 all de scars i had on my hands... made sure i didn't started hanging out wif her1 n her1 frens n start taking religious lessons frm her1...made sure i didn't koled her n tok on de fon 4 hour on end...made sure i didn't write on de table 2 communicate wif her2 wen i saw her2's name in de table n wanted 2 get 2 noe her2...made sure i didn't try 2 get 2 noe her3 n hanged out wif her3 on all dose late nitez...made sure i didn't go thru all dose shit 2 harden up my life...made sure i didn't haf 2 live my life in regret 4 doing all dose tings wen dey jus ended up worst den anyone cud haf imagined... if mayb i had done all dis,den mayb i wud haf been able 2 make sure i wuden haf 2 hear her1 saying thx to me wen i asked 4 a break up cos her1 had lost all her feelings 4 me...i cud make sure her2 wun b able 2 go wif my best fren n i ended up looking like de fool hu wud wait 4ever 4 an answer tt cuden exist...i cud make sure her3 wuden haf 2 admit she went wif me bcos she pitied me wen i broke up wif her...darn...so many regrets in my life...how i reali wish i cud turn back tym...n change my worn past... haiz...damn it...i will try n try my hardest 2 4get tt my past reali existed wif dis 3 girls in my life...try n try 2 4get tt my past had existed in de first place... try n try 2 jus b me... ~i reali dun wan my past,dun care abt de present,dun give a damn abt de future...i jus wan my life back... *4get ray...4get everiting...as if dey nvr hapened...jus rmbr one ting...u r a wolf hu has no past...u nvr had 1...*
