Saturday, June 16, 2007 boring....brings out emo-ness....im jus bored la rite now so i'll add in another post...hmmm...i feel down dis daes...ppl r asking me 4 advices i can provide dem...but each tym i give dem advise,i feel bad cos i can help oders but i can't help myself...its been like 4ever...i get ppl 2gether,i cheer dem up,i help dem out here n dere whenever i can...but wad did i get?i'm nt trying 2 sae tt its my turn 2 receive help frm oders... but... it sucks wen u noe u can do so much more but de reason is u r veri much afraid...i dare 2 help oders succeed but...i dun dare 2 c myself succeed... i jus can't... n on anoder note... i tink its tym i start tinking abt myself instead of oders first...cos i'm kinda tinking tt its unfair being selfish 2 urself by being unselfish 2 oders...but is it reali de rit ting 2 do?is it reali de rite choice 4 me?wad if tings turn out 4 de worst wen i start 2 change?wad if de whole world goes against me bcos i'm starting 2 b more of myself den of oders?wad if?wad if? honestly i tink i'm tinking 2 much...but den again,me n my fren had a tok once tt dere's no such ting as tinking 2 much...its either u tink 2 much or u dun tink at all...hmmm...wad de heck...my feelings as of now is veri weak...i reali get de feeling tt my future is lost n tt my past is beyond redemption...tt leaves me wif de present,sumting wich i'm losing hold of soon... hmmm...wad i reali nd rite now wud b a drink...sumting 2 get me drunk n 2 pour my heart out...i haf a lot of tings 2 sae but i dun noe how 2 put dem into words... n bsides,i might jus bore ppl 2 death...damn it...i feel so fucked up now... anws...gtg now...i tink i nd a smoke...oderwise i might die trying 2 get hme 2nite... peace out everibody...
